Normally, I’m not super supportive of bargaining, but I totally made a deal with these flowers recently. I had gotten them for somebody else, and I wasn’t going to be able to get them to that person for about 48 hours, and I was frightened of what my ungreen thumbs and their kiss of death could accomplish. I vowed to the Gomphrena that if they stayed the same until they met their new mom, I would avoid them like the plague.
…by the time I had dropped them off, I’d named the flowers Harriet and they had met one of my favorite people ever, Grace:
I guess it got me to thinking about how things hardly ever end up looking the way you expect them to. I can’t think of a single thing that has ended up the way I thought it would. Like, at all.
I guess I’m saying that surprises come in many forms, and sometimes they arrive in incredibly unflattering packages. And then there are other times, like the day I met these Italian Greyhounds (pictured above) with Brandon (whose work you should check out here) at TBF. Goodness, all that cuteness just turned my insides outward and upside down.
I keep thinking of this stop sign I have encountered so many times over the course of the last six months of my life, and also of this one thought I had fairly recently about fear and accomplishments, and how sometimes we have to do the things we need and want and aim to do alongside the burden of the fears we hold.
Sometimes, when you get to the other side, you find yourself in familiar places eating noodles cooked in wine with people who feel like family, who provide the most inappropriate commentary in very public spaces and make you cackle when you didn’t know that laughter could coexist with all that other fluff.
To everyone who has been a part of the last six months of my life-your presence has been critically important, and, for the laughter, the jokes, the cookies, the carbohydrates, the listening, the telling, the sharing, the unfolding, and the moments of incredible greatness:
I was told recently to think of all the things in my life that I am grateful for, and I was moved to tears. Thank you for being a part of that. I love you.
Here is your summer mixtape.
The Summer Playlist 2016
Island, IS – Volcano Choir
Ragazzo Triste – Patty Pravo
You’re Pretty Good Looking (For a Girl) – The White Stripes
Blue Moon – Elvis Presley
Everything’s a Ceiling – Death Cab For Cutie
Sunday Love – Bat For Lashes
Flesh Without Blood – Grimes
Daydreaming – Radiohead
Rhiannon – Fleetwood Mac
Dear Sons and Daughters of Hungry Ghosts – Wolf Parade
Young Americans – David Bowie
Future Starts Slow – The Kills
Little Moon – First Aid Kit
Hikikomori – Zola Jesus
Fixing a Hole – The Beatles
Near Death Experience Experience – Andrew Bird
Whiskey and Cigarettes – Geri X
Hand-Me-Down Tune – The Avett Brothers