How to try and mend a heart (part two).
I don’t know. There are no answers. It’s going to pump blood and ache or not ache or not ache and then ache again and then not ache for as long as it wants to. For as long as it can. For as long as it’s possible. For as long as it’s meant to. For as long as you let it. For as long as you don’t.
Things will piece together, as they do. And they will unravel. As they do. You will laugh. You will let some you love come near, and you might even let them wrap loving arms around you.
Do not harden. Do not let even a moment of your time be spent not feeling the things you are feeling as they arise. Even if it means banging your head on the car door because you got lost in your thoughts for a second.
You had other priorities. You were letting your heart talk. It was time to come back.
Still, listen. And let yourself love. In ways you didn’t anticipate. Welcome new faces. Hold hands in a moment of confusion. Forgive those you lost track of. Forgive yourself for the parts that you have played. And maybe you might start to wonder if the point of it all was to help you to realize that you are okay, either way, even with a slight ache sometimes, because
since when do things ever have to appear the way we imagine them?
except, of course, when it involves mint chips and matcha mixing up Hello Dollies, because I definitely dreamed of desiccated coconut crust and semisweet chocolate and macadamias and sweet, grassy, green condensed milk long before it occurred, and my expectations were still surpassed, which brings me to my last point, wherein we acknowledge how the things we envision can also fall short of what reality delivers. maybelet’stry
expect greatness [without attachment to shape or form].
One Year: Cherry Lattice Pie with Tahini Cardamom Crust
Two Years: Chipotle Chèvre Quesadillas with Adobo Guac
Three Years: Trottole with Olive Pistou
Four Years: Mozzarella, Scallion, and Olive Cornbread
Mint Matcha Macadamia Hello Dollies
Makes 16 squares
1 package (8-9) graham crackers, crushed
1/2 cup desiccated coconut
pinch of salt
8 tbsp unsalted butter, melted and cooled
1 tsp pure vanilla extract
1 15-oz can sweetened condensed milk
1 tbsp high quality matcha
3/4 cup macadamia nuts, coarsely chopped
1/2 cup Guittard Mint Chips
3/4 cup semisweet chocolate chips
2 cups coconut flakes
Preheat oven to 350 degrees Fahrenheit. Grease an 8×8 square pan and line with parchment paper. In a medium bowl, combine graham cracker crumbs and coconut. Stir in melted butter. Stir in vanilla. Pour into prepared baking dish and press out to the sides. Meanwhile, in a small bowl, combine sweetened condensed milk and matcha. Set aside. Evenly sprinkle graham crust with macadamia nuts, mint chips, and chocolate chips. Cover with coconut flakes. Pour matcha sweetened condensed milk evenly over the top, pressing gently with a spatula to combine, if necessary. Bake for 25-30 minutes, until the edges are slightly golden. Let cool completely in the pan before using parchment paper to lift out. Slice into squares and enjoy.